What have I done? What am I DOING? As I layed down on my bed so that I could squeeze shut my jeans and put on a nice baggy long top to cover up my hips I thought to myself, "this is not fun. In fact, this is the pure antithesis of fun and games to me. I'm miserable that I'm gaining weight back, weight that I was so happy to have lost. And worked so dang hard to lose. And grasped really hard to my little system to try to keep it off. Which wasn't working, which caused me to burn out and abandon the whole darn thing. No system is even worse than a broken system. But what I really want is to lose the weight I already had lost last year and the last ten pounds I really wanted to keep losing to get to my goal weight. I want my clothes to fit again. I want to not pick at myself and make sure nothing looks icky or funky if my clothes aren't sitting just right. I'm having the same thoughts I did when I started my weight loss journey. Frustration, desperation, hope for some clarity, but mostly just confusion and pain. UGHHHHH.
I've heard in two totally different venues this week "The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.". I realized that this describes me while playing a game of Angry Birds. When I found out Angry Birds was a game of physics it all made perfect sense. I suck at physics. Always have. And I found myself continually doing the same sort of shots trying to make the stuff crumble. Only when I misfired and found the "sweet spot" that conquered the level for me did I realize "Duh. I need to try different things". It seems basic and yet that is my path to discovery. Angry Birds. It's deep, I know.
So, with weight loss it appears to be no different. The clean eating works for me. It does. My problem is that I get very hungry and I have a very powerful Sweet Tooth that when combined, have the capacity to kill my weight loss success in a very short time. Also, we go out to eat on the weekends. Every weekend. We enjoy it, it's an integral part of our lives. There's just no way to abandon it.
I've tried lots of approaches to lose weight and finally I just needed to be done for awhile and take a break. A girl at my work started doing a shake mix, "a shake that tastes like cake batter" is what she would say. Whatever. I don't need that, I thought. But as I continued to struggle, pretty much everybody at my work started using it. And everybody like it, for different reasons. One gal uses it to not gain weight as she starts night school. One girl is losing weight. One girl is using it as a business opportunity - she wants to win the Black BMW the company gives away. Anyhow, after watching my coworkers shrink, I finally figured. what's the harm in checking it out? After all, my far superior system I am doing isn't working at all. In fact, I'm gaining hard-fought weight back and it's messing with my psyche. I'll go check it out.
So here's the crux.
It's a home party that lasts about an hour. Perfect. I have no spare time. But I can give an hour in the name of a smaller backside.
It's tasty. You get to sample the shake for free at the party. Perfect. They say it tastes like cake batter. To me, it tastes like a liquified cupcake. And if I could eat only one food for the rest of my life it would be cupcakes. This is good news for me! You can easily add your own stuff to change it up - peanut butter, cocoa powder, OJ, sugar free syrups, fresh fruit. Variety is good.
It's affordable. A bag of shake mix works out to be only $1.87 a shake. Cheaper than most meals I would make at home and definitely anything I would buy out.
It's nutritious. Chockful of vitamins, protein, practically no sugar. In fact, diabetics can use these and it doesn't impact their insulin. From a weight loss perspective, that fact is very important as well because spiking your insulin contributes to making you fat as well.
It's portable and "quick". One of my main challenges is I am busy. I don't have a lunch break. I'm often pounding food in my car on my way to my next thing. I need something that keeps, is portable without much fuss and satisfies my hunger and tastebuds. This can be just that.
There's no pressure. I was surprised at the party they just give you information. And then they give you space to do as little or as much with it as you want. I decided I definitely wanted to start using it and see what I can do. And I also felt compelled to be a resource for other people that may want to discover this product. I feel that this is a really good product and I know many people in my life that could potentially benefit from it and why can't we all get exactly what we want in life?
I'm done with regrets, moving in the wrong direction, coulda-shoulda-woulda-ing, and feeling negative because I'm not getting different results when I keep doing the same things.
So, I signed up for the Body by Vi 90-Day Challenge. What's the worst that could happen? Nothing happens. And I'm no worse off than when I started. But if something happens, I could win money, a trip, or even just the body I've been working so hard to have. In my eyes, there's no reason to not try it!
If you wanna see more about what I'm doing, you can check out:
http://melissamcgarvey.bodybyvi.com/
There's four videos that give a nice introduction. I will also have some parties to allow people to try it and get a proper introduction to it like I had. If you are interested in coming to a party, let me know!
In the meantime, I'll be documenting my progress here as I work my way through this 90 Day Challenge. I'm ready for a change!
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